By Michelle Wells, Remuda Ranch Alumna
It didn’t take long for Remuda Ranch to become my home and her residents my family, but my stay there was temporary. I knew that from the moment I arrived. Though letters from family and phone calls from home were comforting and something that I looked forward to, they were also a reminder that life beyond the ranch was going on without me.
By Elisabeth Stewart, Remuda Ranch Alumna
I look at you, the person I was ten years ago, about to leave the deserts of Arizona and return to life, a life that seemed terrifying and uncertain and exciting all at the same time. I know you are hopeful and nervous and scared all at the same time. I know you are asking, “Who am I apart from my eating disorder? What do I actually enjoy? What do I actually enjoy doing rather than doing something because ED tells you to? What is it like to live fully without ED screaming in my ear every second?”
By Margo, Remuda Ranch Alumna
Note: This is a letter I wrote to myself when I was still at Remuda Ranch, and I've revised it a bit. I still struggle quite a bit in my eating disorder, but every day, I strive to win those small goals. And if I don't, I try again.
By Lindsay Merrell, Therapist, Remuda Ranch at The Meadows
Since the years of my internship, working with patients facing suicidal thoughts has been concerning, challenging, and inspiring. Individuals struggling with such hopelessness come to professionals in desperate need of relief from what is starting to feel like an inevitable outcome. Our responsibility as professionals is to be persistently and empathically interested in the individual’s struggle. Our curiosity gives them the courage to look at the very pain they fear.
I am the 62 old you writing to encourage and give you the hope that you desperately need. I know your pain. You believe incorrectly that after purging every day for 25 years and now starving yourself that your life is hopeless - I know what you are praying for – A normal life - Not that you know what that is but you would sure like to have it. I am here to tell you that your life ahead will not be normal. It will be so much better than that. It will be amazing.
Many women who have achieved long-term eating disorder recovery tell us that Remuda Ranch at The Meadows was the first place where they truly began their transformation.
By Deirdre Stewart, The Meadows Director of Trauma Resolution Services
The Brain Center at Remuda Ranch at The Meadows opened less than a month ago. It sits high above and looks out onto the gorgeous Sonoran Desert. Its beautiful views and natural, peaceful setting provide an optimal environment for healing, restoration, quieting of the nervous system, and finding a connection back to the self.
Exclusively For Females • Innovative Experiential Therapy • Comprehensive Medical Care